Holiday, Finals and a Whole New Year!

I cant believe I am finally having my first actual family holiday-A family I can call my own and spent it with those who I love and trust the most.I have dreamt this day for far too long! two years ago I remember having the worst family holidays. Everyone was mad at each other and it didnt feel real or caring for one another. Finally, I have learned how to set boundaries and get rid of those who wont make me happy, and keep the ones who really matter. The ones that dont try to hurt me-the ones that make me feel good inside-the ones that care about me-the ones that dont take advantage of me-I have so much to be greatful for ThanksGiving,and I am going to spend it with all fo those who made my life feel great well most of them.( I hope to thank everysingle one of them). I am glad, that I am in good terms with my aunt who will help me do most of the cooking; which include, Tamales, Turkey, Ham, Mashed potatoes and gravy, Sweet potatoes, olives, Peas, Corn, ponche de frutas. pumpkin pie, and cider. yummy!Even though I am extreamly happy about the Holidays. I still have my worries about my mother. There are some days where I think she lets herself get possesed by satans little minons, but with Crist has the power to reluenquish it.But I worrie day to day that her condition will worsen and she wont cooperate with me and understand the situation. Her first interview for a free rent free apartment for her living situtation on her own went bad, and she didnt sighn anything or agree to anything.She has a second chance. If she doesnt agree-well my heart will tear and all ill be able to do is leave it to God's hands, because living with her will destroy everything I have.( my marriage, my friendships/roomates,my personal belongings,my health and well being).My other fear is that the if she does cooperate the unite to her apartment wont be done till January, andI
have been warned that if my mother doesnt leave by January then they will move out and take their own route.(which would put me and my husband in a financial strugle.) but I leave it to Gods hands to have patients for me and them to have patients on us and my mother.But i try to put a smile on my face and remember that the lord is under control on all of this, and try to focuse on the hollidays and what to buy people for christmas. (praying that the lord will bless me to bless them this year) and have a good vacation with my husband soon!Ill post up some pictures of the Holidays and how it all went soon! Happy Hollidays everyone, and God bless!!!

Trial and Error.

I've been married for a month now, and I; myself cant believe I am married to the man I thought would never come back into my life.A man who left such a huge imprent in my heart that no man could have taken out. I thank God for my marriage, because with out him I wouldn't have gotten the best of the best for me and my life. Its been a long journey for him and me, and i thought this day would never come. Despite everything I've been through- naming only a few: Marcos's mom not aggresing to our marriage wanting us to live in sin, youth group hating me since i came to there church ( didnt even really let me in there group at all that worried me, since marcos was the youth president I had no way to help him if they didnt let me in), Other girls trying to get in the way by trying to hit on my man; while i wasn't there, my mom being sick was a huge worrie for me ( I knew that in her condition she would ruin my marriage if i didnt find a place for her soon, and worried marcos wouldnt be able to handle her). I keeped this verse in my heart, soul and mind as i went through so much."But god had everything prepared Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
– Hebrews 12:1-3
I left everything in Gods hands and left things in his timming before I knew it all those troubles I had desapeared and things got better. know I am loved by my youth group, which gives me so much enthusiasm and youth camp gave me so much word and strenght for this comming year. Now I know some of the reasons why God put marcos in my path and why my church. I love my church very much and my pastors and plan to help my church with everything I have. I have many plans to help the youth grow fundraisers.

1. selling homemade pies for the hollidays
2. selling homemade quilts
3. selling chocolate bars ( like at my old youth group)
4. Talento ( what everyone at church does sells food on one day a month on friday
5. I also want to be active in helping the DORCAS ( tittle for married women at our church)
6. I especially want to be active in Flor Azul ( a fundraiser for our missionaries that are all over the world including the most recent one ITALY).

I am just so happy I cant explain, but like my best friend Rebecca remind me. Its cause your still in your honeymoon stage. But even so I still believe with christ all things are possible; including happiness. But it has been hard trying to balance eachother in our likes and dislikes, since my husband is especially picky about keeping the house clean everyday( which is IMPOSSIBLE wth my school and work schedual plus church), wanting peruvian food ( not so succesful yet) and having weird pet peves like taking a shower before getting into bed.(O_o yastill havent udnerstood that one yet!) But I still love my husband and we get along pretty fine even though we have nothing in commen. I still wish though that he would work on being on american time schedual not Latin time ( for those that dont know what I mean its a spanish jokeit pretty much means his never on time to ANYTHING) annoys me so much. *sigh* but I pray to God he fixes things only he can change him; which i belive in so much, since he has already changed him so much since we last saw each other at highschool. Well till I write again God Bless You All! and no we are not planning on having kids for another 3 years tops. ;) I have my newphews to enjoy for that time being.